Damien Breaks His Silence!

 Hello All! I know it has been a very long time since I have made any sort of blog post. It has also been a little over a year since I made the shocking announcement that I was leaving UCW! If you have been following me on social media then you would already know all there is to know lately. I sometimes forget though that a lot of you don't use Twitter or we aren't connected on Facebook. Well that is about to change because I now have a Facebook Page under Grayden Damien so I suggest you also like that page if you haven't already. Anyway I think it is about time that I share with the rest of the world and not just my Facebook Friends but today I am breaking my silence on my 'controversial" UCW EXIT! So for the first time I am giving you the full story. Some of you already know the full story but there are still a lot of you who have been in the dark. I have never spoken negatively of my exit or of UCW. I am not that kind of person. I have always just spoke how I saw things from my own perspective and I think that might have caused some confusion to some. So hopefully this clears everything up once and for all.

     The character of "Damien" was always a controversial figure both in and out of UCW. I had a character that was way over the top and really tried to push the envelope in terms of  sexuality, erotica, and flamboyancy. I grew up idolizing a lot of over the top performers who put their all into everything they did. I wanted Damien to really be somewhat of a split personality. You never really knew which side of him you would get and that's why I proclaimed myself, "The Image of Deception." Somehow a long the way I don't know if I got lost in my character or if my character got lost on the audience, or the creative team but somewhere along the way I was turning into a modern version of 1996 Goldust!

     I said it a few times before that I left on terms of creative differences. I still do stand by that but I also feel like I could have done more to communicate my dissatisfaction with what was becoming of Damien. I was also at a point of time where I was very torn in regards to what I was feeling. One part of me wanted to just keep pushing through hoping that my big "push" would come and my character could be taken more seriously. The other part was just disgusted. I lost sleep over my decision to leave UCW. It really wasn't something that was easy to do. I had long talks with my husband, best friend, a close fan. It was one of those things that I could get screwed either way. UCW was always very flexible and open to a lot of ideas that I had, that is where the st patrick's day match came from. I just didn't wanna cause even further damage and make myself seem like a demanding bitch. I knew people liked me and that I had fans buying my matches. I just didn't wanna seem like I had some sort of ego when on the business side of things my matches could be selling worse than someone who may actually deserve to be in the top spot at that particular moment. Like i said I was majorly torn and didn't know how to really handle the situation. The final straw came over a misunderstanding about my current weight. I'll explain that.

    I was trying to train to make my way to BG EAST.. Not that I was turning my back on UCW but I really did want some more opportunity and BG EAST seemed like it could be on my horizon. I previously auditioned for BG EAST but I needed to put on more muscle before I'd even be considered. That was sort of the problem with me being on the smaller side. There was another company that actually was also interested but again they thought I was too small and too slim and they would only be willing to do 1 match as a trial and if that failed I'd be tied into a 1 year agreement where I couldn't wrestle for anyone else. This was at a time where I was also doing my own thing so I did not even want to get involved. Anyway back to BG EAST, I forgot what the other company even was but they won't worth my time. I wasn't being used as much in UCW so I started training to get in better shape for BG EAST. I was bulking up but I put on too much weight for UCW. They more went after my slim look, but this was another thing where I sort of had a disagreement on. I liked that I finally put on a little bit of bulk and didn't look underweight like I did previously. So the shit storm and floodgate was now open. I felt that I was worthless over a comment and it really influenced my choice to leave.  So that's what I did.
 
     I made the decision to leave UCW and after I did it felt like a shit storm erupted. So many people got the wrong message, and others didn't really make it any better. People were talking and people were spreading rumors. All of which was now further damaging my relationship with UCW. I started to feel discouraged and really didn't know what I wanted to do anymore. The school I was training pro at previously had decided to close down do to low enrollment and for one reason or another BG EAST never panned out. Then I decided for the most part to keep things pretty low key. I worked on promoting some of my own videos that I did with my husband and then got some other guys interested in wrestling me. I've toyed around with the idea of going completely solo and launching my own thing but now with a big move across the country I will be putting that on hold for a little bit.

   I recently took the opportunity to actually make amends with UCW and more or less bury the hatchet not that there was ever any hard feelings on this side. I was the one who made the decision to leave and I was the one who had to face any consequences but it was one of those things that I wasn't comfortable with leaving on a bitter note. I wanted to leave the door open for the future. I was always grateful for my time in UCW and I didn't wanna sabotage any possible thing happening in the future. I am not saying that I would jump at the chance to return to UCW action tomorrow, but in the future I wouldn't want to rule out like an all star battle royal, or like a past superstars returning for a one off appearance type of thing..  You really never know. I am also not the type to hold a grudge because there is just no point in that.

  This blog is already very long so I am going to end it here. I just felt like you all had the right to know what I am feeling in regards to the whole situation. Not to really beat a dead horse but I wanted to really clear the air once and for all since I have been holding back for so long and really wanted to move on from the past.

   In any event I was always glad for any of the fan support I got and I love you guys! I am going to continue kicking ass and improving myself and being the best I can be!  STAY FLAWLESS!!

Ask Grayden Damien Again!

Welcome to yet another edition of ASK GRAYDEN DAMIEN!  As usual you guys always have interesting questions for me! Let us not waste any more time and get this thing started!

Q: When will we see you back in UCW?
A: I have actually been getting asked that a lot over the last few months. I decided it was time for me to quit back at the end of May. It is something that I have not changed my mind on. I pretty much burned that bridge and any chance of me returning. I stayed respectable and professional with my exit but had certain people trying to bring me down after my exit. I can 100% say that you will not ever see me back in UCW! I prefer to keep it that way! I am grateful for my time there but there is a reason you see a lot of guys come and go. I couldn't lie to myself anymore and pretend I was happy in a situation that I clearly wasn't happy in.

Q: What are your thoughts on Ty Alexander from BG?
A: I don't really know much about him to be honest with you. He seems to be very popular at the moment and that is great for him! I've only chatted with him a handful of times but I know he has worked very hard to get to where he is now. He worked hard on his body and really transformed himself. He had a great deal of dedication and that is respectable. Aside from that I haven't seen any of his matches. I can't pass judgement on his wrestling ability or style. It is too hard to tell if he is Skip Vance 2.0!

Q:In any of your wrestling experiences have you ever been
brought to orgasm mid match?
A: Hey STEVEN D! Figured I'd give you that shout out! I am going to say no on this one. A lot of people look at the eroticism of wrestling and get turned on instantly. It has never been about an erotic experience for me. I'm more driven by the competition and passion for the love of the sport. The erotic aspects are put on the back burner when I'm in a match. I'm too focused and don't look at it in a sexual way so it hasn't happened. That doesn't mean that the natural side effects of rubbing up against another man haven't come up. No different than when a doctor checks your penis and you get an erection.

Q: Would you ever wrestle for BG EAST?
A: I don't think at this current time that is of interest to me. A while ago that was my ultimate goal, but it isn't at the top of my list anymore. I have wrestled in their ring before and there is a lot I am capable of. I wouldn't say yes right now if I was asked today, but I would consider it in the future if asked. I'd have to follow the product a little closer and know what my expectations were before doing anything. Some of their videos seem to be flat out porn and to me that is not what wrestling is about. I understand there is a market for that and I have even taken advantage of that market doing my own videos with my future husband. It would seem hypocritical of me to say I wouldn't mix the two! I'd just rather keep it on the wrestling side of things if I ever did wind up in BG EAST. I wouldn't wanna get involved in the more heavily erotic side, I'll only get erotic with my husband. I have the talent and I have a great look. So if they would be able to find use for me then I'd surely consider it, but I wouldn't be sucking dick after losing a match. 

Q: Who would you love to wrestle that you haven't had the chance to yet?
A: Well whomever asked me about Ty Alexander I'm sure wants to see us go head to head! That could be interesting. UCW dropped the ball countless times with dream match ups my fans were asking for. Then of course there is Cody Rhodes! :p


Q: What do you do to keep in awesome shape?
A: I just take care of myself really! Part of my major in college is a lot to do with fitness and nutrition. I hate to just say the cliche answer of exercising and eating right, but that really is all that it is. Eating right is different for everybody and you really have to find what works for you. A lot of my stamina came from a mixture of doing the Insanity program and my pro wrestling training. Right now I am a fan of Focus T25 because of how hectic my schedule is. Again you have to give it your all and not do it half ass!


Well this was exciting! I had a few more questions but I think I will save those for a future blog as they are all sorts of random. That just means that in the future I will have to do another Ask Grayden Damien blog!  So for next time feel free to get a jump start on those questions!

Am I done with Wrestling?

For those of you who don't follow me on twitter or facebook you may have missed out on some important updates.

I will repost them here

Thank you guys for everything! Today is the day with great regret that I announce I am finished with wrestling! I recently had a life changing experience in which I also found God! So as I walk a new path in my life I hang up my wrestling boots! Looking ahead to the future. Probably going to be deleting this facebook by the end of today. You guys have been the greatest fans and friends I can ask for. Don't worry you can still keep in touch via snail mail. I have my po box paid for the next few months. Thanks again! Your support has meant the world to me! Wanted to tell you guys a few things before I leave wrestling for good. I've filmed one more match but sadly not with ucw. I don't know when it's coming out but I'm appearing as "Blake" I wasn't given a last name. Not really supposed to talk about it yet but I'm done with wrestling so who cares! You guys can keep in touch at least till August!


A lot of people weren't sure what to make of these updates and to be honest with you I wasn't either. I think I may have ruffled some feathers and the response has been very mixed. Some of you have messaged me saying I'm far too young to retire and I have too much talent to throw it all away. Some of you also didn't really give a fuck either way! The response was interesting. I guess I should just come out with it. 

THIS WASN'T AN APRIL FOOL'S DAY JOKE!




Well not in the traditional sense. This was one of those times that I really was looking to get a reaction out of people. Some were quick to jump on and say it was an April Fool's joke and others were legitimacy upset. I guess the good news to come out of this is I am not done with wrestling and I am going to continue wrestling. I love wrestling too much to walk away! However there are some other things I should clear up before I go further.

At the current moment my pro wrestling training is at a stand still. The school is sort of on a winter hiatus. I hope that doesn't mean we are done for good. I don't wanna get too involved with that. I am also awaiting to hear when my next UCW match is going to be and I am working on helping my fiance with workouts and getting him ready to wrestle. He may end up joining UCW if the cards lay out right.  There are of course other plans for the future for other things but I won't discuss those at this moment.  I am also not appearing as Blake at this current moment. Sorry to let you guys down if you wanted to see me on another site but currently not happening. Right now there aren't any sites I'm interested in appearing on. On a final note I also didn't find GOD! I won't get into what my beliefs are but that is a ridiculous statement to make! I always found it funny when people used that as any kind of excuse for a life changing event! Had to poke fun at that.


Well that is all for now!
Will catch you guys later.


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Ask Grayden Damien!

I love answering your questions! I figure now that I have this blog this would be the perfect place to do it. At the start of the year I asked you guys to send me some questions. These are some of the questions that I got and I am looking to answer more. Make sure you read through to the end to see how you can submit more questions to me. The last few segments were strictly about UCW! Now as I am expanding my horizons I am taking more types of questions.

Q: Damien comes across as flamboyant and wild, are you like that off camera?
A: That is part of the mystery man! There is a reason I call myself the image of deception. Part of the reason I come across that way is so people under estimate me and I stand out. There isn't another UCW wrestler who can touch my personality. You gotta do what you gotta do to get ahead. It works for me and people mistake my hyper personality for a weakness. That is why I also do a lot of dirty moves and tactics in my match. I'm not a full blown heel and I'm not a total face. So playing up to camp allows me to really do whatever the hell I want in my matches. I can grind my crotch in your face or give you a swift kick to the nuts. Take your pick? Off screen I'm not quite that gay. That's all part of my image and my manipulation tactics.




Q: Are you done with UCW?
A: I addressed this in a previous blog! As long as fans wanna see me I'll continue to wrestle for UCW. You'll see more of me in 2014!


Q: What are your 2014 goals in UCW?
A: One of my main goals is to be the best wrestler I can be. To keep myself evolving and keep myself appealing to the fans. I think this year you'll see some improvements and I'll keep things fresh. I'm also planning on becoming champion at some point. So look out!

Q: Will you be appearing on any other wrestling sites?A: Not really! Aside from what I do with Devin for our own videos. I am not interested in many of the other sites right now. I touched upon this in a previous blog. Fans are interested in seeing me on other sites and there have been talks but nothing really set in stone. If the right opportunity comes along with the right wrestling promotion then of course I'd consider it.



Q: Has your life changed since becoming a famous wrestler?
A: HA HA If only I was a famous wrestler! I get what you mean though! The only thing that has really changed is I have had more opportunity and more exposure because of UCW. It has opened some doors and also gave me a fanbase.


Q: Favorite Wrestler?
A: UCW It is my enemy turned best friend Michael Hannigan! WWE It is Cody Rhodes! On the Indy Scene it's really too hard to pick. There is some great talent out there and also a lot of generic similar talent. As far as other gay wrestling sites I have no idea. I can tell you more who I dislike on gay wrestling sites, but I don't wanna start shit here!

Q: Top, Bottom, or Vers?
A: That is for me and my fiance to know and nobody else!

Q: Do you do private matches?
A: This question is becoming too common! I've answered it before and discussed it in heavy detail. Not at this time!





This has been fun! I am sure we will do many more of these. So if you'd like to ask me some questions here is how.. You can either comment here, hit me up on facebook, twitter, AskFm, or email! Thanks again guys!


Grayden Damien!